God is love. ~I John 4:8
I don’t remember when I learned this verse.
It’s been part of my understanding of Who God is and how He works in the world as far back as my mind can travel.
But I freely admit: He may BE love, but I don’t always FEEL loved.
When I compare verses like Matthew 7:10-12 to my own experience, it’s hard to wrap my heart around the disconnect between what I have been given and what I would give my own children.
If any of you were asked by his son for bread would you be likely to give him a stone, or if he asks for a fish would you give him a snake? If you then, for all your evil, quite naturally give good things to your children, how much more likely is it that your Heavenly Father will give good things to those who ask him?
Matthew 7:10-12 PHLLIPS
It did not, and does not, FEEL like the act of a loving Father to have allowed the death of my son.
But I am more than my feelings.
And while it is not sin to feel abandoned, or hurt, or even angry-I must be careful not to let my feelings dictate my response to the truth revealed in God’s Word.
I acknowledge my emotions but I will not be ruled by them.
I am transformed by the renewing of my mind-I am transformed as I fill my mind with God’s truth.
So I lean in:
I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God
.Ephesians 3:16-19 NIV
And I hold on:
The Eternal is compassionate and merciful. When we cross all the lines, He is patient with us. When we struggle against Him, He lovingly stays with us—changing, convicting, prodding;
Psalm 103:8 VOICE
Even though I don’t feel it, I sing this truth to my broken heart:
Since we have been acquitted and made right through faith, we are able to experience true and lasting peace with God through our Lord Jesus, the Anointed One, the Liberating King. Jesus leads us into a place of radical grace where we are able to celebrate the hope of experiencing God’s gloryAnd that’s not all. We also celebrate in seasons of suffering because we know that when we suffer we develop endurance, which shapes our characters. When our characters are refined, we learn what it means to hope and anticipate God’s goodness. And hope will never fail to satisfy our deepest need because the Holy Spirit that was given to us has flooded our hearts with God’s love.
Romans 3:3-5 VOICE
Because there will be a day when my faith is sight, my feelings and my knowledge will agree, but until then I try to let God’s truth transform me so that I can “let God re-mould [my] mind from within, so that [I] may prove in practice that the plan of God for [me] is good, meets all his demands and moves towards the goal of true maturity.” (Romans 112:2b PHILLIPS)