A High Price to Pay

I have learned a lot in these four years since Dominic ran ahead ahead to heaven.

But what a price to pay for wisdom!

It’s certainly not one I’d have agreed to up front.

Yet, here I am, older and oh, so much wiser, than I would have been if I had not buried a child.

Sometimes I resent that I wasn’t given the choice.  I would trade any wisdom, no matter how beautiful and valuable for the life of my  son.

No contest.

But since I cannot have him back, I’m trying hard to pay attention to the lessons grief is teaching me.  I try to embrace the insights sorrow is showing my heart.  I will not treat lightly any wisdom I may find in this Valley.  I won’t dishonor my son’s life by making little of the things his death has revealed to  me.

And I will not stay silent.

I will shout from the rooftops, from the hillsides, from any bit of altitude I can gain that the most important thing in life is love.

Love of God.

Love of people.

Nothing else really matters.

love God love others rocks

Everything else can be bought and sold.

But love cannot be traded for money-it is priceless, eternal and immortal.

Our bodies don’t last forever, but love does.  

Our hopes may be dashed, but love lives.

Our breath may be exhausted, but love never runs out.

the answer is still and again love

Author: Melanie

I am a shepherd, wife and mother of four amazing children, three that walk the earth with me and one who lives with Jesus. This is a record of my grief journey and a look into the life I didn't choose. If you are interested in joining a community of bereaved parents leaning on the promises of God in Christ, please like the public Facebook page, "Heartache and Hope: Life After Losing a Child" and join the conversation.

9 thoughts on “A High Price to Pay”

  1. Yes…one of the things I’ve come to realize since my sons death is how eternal love really is like you said. It doesn’t go away just because they are gone. “Priceless, eternal and immortal.”….so so true.


    1. Every heart is different. There’s no set time or path for this journey. I am so sorry for your pain and loss. May you feel the Father’s Presence close to you and ma He overwhelm you with His love, grace and mercy. ❤️

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  2. I am 5 weeks into the sudden loss of my Son. He was 21 and was killed in a work accident. I lost my husband almost 3 years ago so I understand great loss. I don’t know how but I managed to find your posts. Thank you so much for writing so much of what I feel but am not able to communicate myself. You are a blessing to me as I navigate through this terrible new world of missing my beautiful son.

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    1. I am so so sorry your son died suddenly, Kim. It is almost four years for me with my own daughter who was 24 years. This is early days for you in navigating this horrible pain, please consider joining our FB group ‘Held, Compassionate’ it does help.

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  3. I totally understand the wisdom that comes from deep grief. I’ve learned so much, that I never wanted ! But I too choose to take all I could of this, for

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