Holiday Hangover

Sometimes the day or the week after a holiday seems extra hard.

Deflated. Exhausted. Weepy. Irritable. Discontented.

All words that can describe a heart once the dishes are washed and the celebration ended.

Some of y’all probably woke up thinking, “I did pretty good on Mother’s Day” only to be blindsided by the tears you managed to hide and the grief you managed to stuff.

That’s OK. It happens.

If you are struggling to open your eyes to a new day or face this week, I want to pray for you-I want to pray for us:

Father God,

You have made me and I am yours.

Sometimes I don’t feel You but I trust You haven’t abandoned me. You care for me with the tender heart of a mother for her children so I know you are here. You are a good, good Father and Your loving kindness is eternal.

My heart wants to run and hide.

I’m tired.

Tired of carrying this load, tired of pretending it’s not all that heavy, tired of trying to put the scattered pieces of a broken life back together.

Help me.

Help me lean into the truth that I don’t have to do any of that alone. Help me let go of the things I have no control over and to place them into your hands. Help me adjust my expectations and my attitude.

Give me sufficient grace for this moment, this hour, this day. Pour your love into my spirit and strengthen me with your courage. Make me brave. Be my Light and my Life.

Amen

It’s OK to cry. It’s OK to take the mask off and let the feelings fall.

You’re not alone. 

Author: Melanie

I am a shepherd, wife and mother of four amazing children, three that walk the earth with me and one who lives with Jesus. This is a record of my grief journey and a look into the life I didn't choose. If you are interested in joining a community of bereaved parents leaning on the promises of God in Christ, please like the public Facebook page, "Heartache and Hope: Life After Losing a Child" and join the conversation.

4 thoughts on “Holiday Hangover”

  1. All day Monday, this was me. I couldn’t stop the tears, and felt so irritatable, and I didn’t really know why. Maybe partly the “relief” of surviving my second “Mother’s Day ” without my precious Molli? I felt guilty because my husband and daughter did a wonderful job of making it a special day, and making me feel loved, but I still felt so sad and was missing my girl so much. I have such a hard time expressing this. I have one other daughter Rachel, almost sixteen (a year older than Molli.) I Iove her dearly. But, I feel like I cannot express to her how much I miss Molli, for fear that she may feel that she is “not enough.” It’s such a strange new road, that I never wanted to walk. Some days just feel so dark and overwhelming. Thank you Melanie for bringing light, and hope, with your writing. I find much comfort in your words.
    -Karen Colver

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    1. I think most of us waiting parents have some guilt whenever we survive a holiday or other special time without our missing child. I remember the first time I really laughed out loud-truly laughed, not a forced laugh-after Dom left. I could hardly believe it! What was wrong with me???

      And then there are the other relationships in our families we have to navigate carefully and with an eye to the other person’s feelings and psyche. You are a wise mama to think about your other daughter and if she might feel inadequate. Love is really all we have to give anyone, any time. I’m sure you are loving Rachel and she knows that.

      Praying the rest of this week is not a stress-filled and out of sorts. ❤

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