You Existed, You Exist

Sometimes this thought is  what gets me through the day:

You existed, you exist.

Sometimes I say it to his photo on my phone:

You existed, you exist.

Sometimes I want to scream it out the window:

YOU EXISTED! YOU EXIST!

My son is not a number or a statistic or only a memory.

He is integral to my story, blood of my blood and flesh of my flesh–part of my life.

I rest assured he lives in heaven with Jesus but I miss him here with me. That’s selfish, I know.  But I can’t seem to help it.

I don’t know how to be glad that my young, healthy, brilliant child died-just like that-here one moment, gone the next.

The broken heart of every parent who has buried a child cries out:

My child existed..

He lived.

He mattered.

My child exists still.

He lives.

He matters.

 

 

“Can a mother forget the infant at her breast,
    walk away from the baby she bore?” ~Isaiah 49:15 MSG

Author: Melanie

I am a shepherd, wife and mother of four amazing children, three that walk the earth with me and one who lives with Jesus. This is a record of my grief journey and a look into the life I didn't choose. If you are interested in joining a community of bereaved parents leaning on the promises of God in Christ, please like the public Facebook page, "Heartache and Hope: Life After Losing a Child" and join the conversation.

12 thoughts on “You Existed, You Exist”

  1. My daughter Erin Nicole born October 6, 1983 and died November 23, 1983, the has never been a day go by that I did tell her how much I miss her and love her. Most day shed a few tears for her too.

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  2. I’ve never commented before, because it’s hard to put into words what I want to say. Thank you Melanie for what you are doing. I think that you write the words that many of us feel in our hearts. My thirteen
    year old daughter Molli, left for heaven so suddenly and unexpectedly March 31 of 2019, leaving our hearts shattered. She was smart and beautiful, and we love and miss her so much. Molli knew Jesus and had a close relationship with him, and a very strong faith for such a young girl. She existed and she still exists! Though we miss her here on earth so terribly, we know that she is alive and well in heaven, and we can’t wait to hug her again! Thank you so much for your encouraging words. They make me cry so often. May God bless you and your family, and bring you peace and comfort until the day that you see your Dominic again. ❤
    -Karen Colver

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