Father, I have stopped asking for miracles.
My wounded heart has lost the faith it once had for hoping You might step in and make something out of nothing.
I still believe in YOU. I still hope in YOU.
BUT I am resigned to a life of waiting to see redemption and restoration in Heaven, not here.
In the waiting I ask only two things: Mercy and grace.
Please, please show me mercy, Lord.
Incline Your ear, O Lord, and answer me, For I am distressed and needy [I long for Your help].
Psalm 86:1 AMP
Please spare me even greater pain and sorrow. Please don’t pile more burdens on my broken back-I don’t think I can make another step if You do.
And I beg You to overwhelm my hurting heart with Your grace.
He said to me, “My grace is enough to cover and sustain you. My power is made perfect in weakness.” So ask me about my thorn, inquire about my weaknesses, and I will gladly go on and on—I would rather stake my claim in these and have the power of the Anointed One at home within me.
2 Corinthians 12:9 VOICE
Let me feel your Presence, let my spirit be strengthened by your Spirit, give me grace to accept what You’ve allowed and the strength to carry it.
Amen.
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Thank you for sharing this prayer. It means a lot to me. I’ve recorded it my journal and have made it my prayer as well. I also know that I live in two worlds, and I’m trying really hard NOT to hate this one…but it continues to be a daily struggle. I honestly don’t want my granddaughter to grow up in this dark world full of sin and evil that seems to poison everyone.
I’ve also been blessed to “see” my son in Heaven, through a vision and several dreams. This has provided the strength I needed, at the time, to take another step forward in this life. But I so desperately want to see the Return of The KING, who will make all things new and glorious again. And I often grow tired and weary of this life.
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You have absolutely took the thought right out of my brain. My mind has been a spiritual warfare since 2008! I appreciate your blog and want you to know it has helped me way more than you know! God bless you and yours 🙏❤️🙏
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I’ve struggled so much with praying since the loss of my son, but your prayer for mercy and grace is one I can pray.
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I am praying our loving Father will overwhelm your hurting heart in a very special way today with His mercy, grace and love.
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Thank you Kim.
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Melanie-15 years ago my wife and I participated in our 1st Christmas season without our youngest of 4. She was in a car accident that
ushered her into heaven along with 3 other teenagers. 7 bibles at the accident scene, broad daylight going to see Carmen’s movie” Champion.” That Christmas everyone gathered at our house as they had every other year. The noise was the same, the activities were the same and the food was the same. My family and I were not the same! Everyone else seemed to want it to the same. My feelings at that time mirrored much the same as yours. In all the activities I exited to get firewood, it was a snowy night and no wind, which was unusual for our area. As I began to gather the firewood God spoke to me and told me to be still and not to move or turn around and revealed that my daughter was there and wanted to see me. I was not allowed to look for her or to see her: this was for her! Even though I did not see her, I received the most critical Christmas present I could have. I learned that Lynley was as real as ever and that she had not changed and I still had 4 children. Also God filled a need in her life and mine. He is with her and cares for her in His presence as well as with us caring for our needs presently. Immanuel God with us took on a grand meaning that moment- as much as I desire my daughter’s presence I was shown what was most important is that God is with us, those on both sides and I was invited -as you have been, to live in two worlds. Lynley resides in heaven,but it is not so far away. I pray that you get a special gift from our Father this season and that it helps carry you into your next steps. God is with “US” those who reside in both worlds, real worlds for real people. I never write on social media but want you to know you encourage us always with your insightful wonderful writings. You have a blessed gift and God is with you.
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Thank you very much John. I appreciate your breaking silence on social media to share your experience. It’s a great encouragement to my heart and a very real gift. May the Lord continue to bless you as you have blessed me.
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“Living in two worlds”…I didn’t know what to call it before. Now I know.
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