Grief has challenged every single thing I believed about God and about myself.
It made me doubt whether He is a loving Father, whether He keeps His promises, whether He even cares one whit about all us little humans running around on planet Earth.
And it made me wonder what in the world is wrong with me that MY child was killed? What had I done to deserve this?
Grief tells lies.
And one of the biggest lies grief whispers is, “You are worthless.”
That is simply not true.
Even if you weren’t treasured by your earthly parents, the God of the universe treasures you, and His thoughts about you are always good. He chose you when He planned creation (Ephesians 1:11-12), and you are not a mistake (Psalm 71:6), and His thoughts toward you are countless – like the grains of sand on the shore (Psalm 139:17-18). You are really, truly, deeply loved by God.
~Esther Fleece, No More Faking Fine
I don’t know your story but I can promise you this: God isn’t finished with you yet.
I believe that each one of us is celebrated as a unique creation of our Father.
That goes for our children, but also for us.
I have no idea why God’s plan includes me outliving my child but He has a purpose that is yet unfulfilled for my life.
What happens TO us doesn’t determine our worth-not even the awful and heart shattering experience of child loss.
You are loved by a Heavenly Father Who has a plan for your life.
He can bring beauty from ashes, even the ashes of child loss.
You are not alone-you have a community of bereaved parents who will listen, love and lift you.
Lean in and hold onto hope. Don’t let go.
I’m praying for you.