If others had access to my view of this WordPress site they’d marvel at the number of post drafts I’ve left unfinished.
As of today, it’s over a thousand.
But I won’t let them go until I feel like I’ve gotten them right. And lately I haven’t been able to do that.
It’s not traditional writer’s block because I still have lots to say, still put words on [virtual] paper and still dictate random notes onto my phone when walking or driving.
I just can’t finish the thoughts.
I’m not sure if it’s a function of the unprecedented times in which we find ourselves, the sudden and unexpected change of having my husband work from home or what I call my “season of sorrow” that lasts from the end of March through the end of May but something is definitely mucking up the works.
I hope to find a few hours soon to sit down in silence with my own thoughts and my computer and finish up new posts I’ve started.
I really do have things I long to share.
So bear with me friends.
I aim to be back in the swing of things soon.
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Overthinking is basically addressingn too much thinking with even more thinking.
Like trying harder to fall asleep.
Writer’s block is similar, same for any creative field. Creativity can’t be caged, too much structure destroys creativity.
But yet, the logical mind thinks it can solve the problem of too few ideas with thinking more.
Creativity is more emotion/feeling based than logical, it is ideas coming from a sense of relaxation, not concentration.
Like a relaxing shower or evening walk.
This is why creative individuals are often also the “sensitive” ones.
Sometimes the best way to break through writer’s block is to give yourself permission to write a few poor quality pages, just loosen up the writing muscles.
No judgement of good or bad, less logic, more feelings based.
I find this to work wonders. Open an editor and type whatever comes to mind, on or off topic, then throw it away afterwards pulling out what’s useful, if anything.
I’ve written about this extensively.
Big ideas!
Good topic for this time, where so much time is given to many but with added stress.
Thanks for sharing! 😄
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I sit here with tears falling down my face and feel like there’s no one to turn to. My 29 year old daughter died on 1-19-19. She was the light of our family. I was looking forward to retiring and spending time with her family as it grew. She had a 10 month son and was 10 weeks pregnant when she died. And now I have lost a relationship that couldn’t survive the “pinging” of my grief. My retirement is the end of May and I have sold my home, both while believing I was starting a life with my partner that would bring me some joy in the time I have left on this earth. It’s all gone, just like my sweet Kelsey. I can’t hear God’s voice or feel His comfort.
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I am so very sorry! You have additional pressures on your heart that are making this journey even harder! That’s one of the most difficult aspects of child loss, I think, all the things we not only lose in the past and the moment, but all the future we’re robbed of going forward. And we often lose other important people in our lives who can’t or won’t hang in while we navigate this path. Retirement is always a huge transition and now the axis upon which you were making choices has been pulled out from under you. I’m not surprised your heart can’t hear from the Lord. It’s hurting and filled with angst. But He’s there. He can take your feelings-all of them-and He will speak to you again. I’m praying that He will make His Presence very real to you not only in quiet moments but also in practical help from human beings who can come alongside and offer you a hand and hope. ❤
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I totally get it Melanie. Although I do not write as you do every day, or with your clarity of thought, I do write. More drafts than I have ever published 😉
Times are difficult, adding more changes to our already altered lives. I am feeling very much at sea at the moment.
Take good care my friend xxx
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Melanie as I sat down to do my morning devotions I read your post. Your writings have been such a help to me. Is the hole from Jeff gone? No but I cry fewer days & nights & a portion of that is because of your words of comfort. Thank You from the bottom of my heart! I realized I haven’t prayed for you on a consistent basis & as of today your name will be posted on the side of my coffee maker with some other women I pray for regularly God Bless You!
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Take it one moment at a time. Love your post. I feel overwhelmed right now with college kids home, husband recently retired and I’m still working full time. Plus the feeling that I need to watch every word out of my mouth when I talk about Rob . Gone almost 3 years because of other family members feelings. Wishing I could just grieve a full day or two with out feeling like the responsible stable one in the house.
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Sending lots of gratitude your way Melanie for sharing your special gift of writing , sharing your heart to all us sisters in loss . Thank you Take care of your self
Hugs Mary Ann Southlake texas
Mary Ann
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Well said, I love this wonderful style (:
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