I first shared this six years ago so it may shock some folks that while I have finally tossed most of the things in my fridge that once belonged to Dominic, I’ve got a giant bottle of hot sauce I’m still using.
Every time I add spicy flavor to chili I think of him.
I’m not looking forward to the day it runs out because it will be one more link dissolved between the living son I knew in the flesh and the memories I have to settle for now.❤
My dad lives in another state so I call each morning just to check in and say hello.
We usually chat about what we have planned for the day, what we did the day before and share any important family updates.
Yesterday my dad mentioned that he had been to the grocery store, came home and when putting away the food he bought decided to clean out his refrigerator. He joked that he found some things from years ago tucked in the back where they’d been forgotten.
I laughed and said, “Yeah-I did that sometime last summer.”
And then my heart froze as I remembered another fridge I cleaned out three years ago.
I went on to say, “I threw out all the old stuff except what I took out of Dom’s fridge when we cleaned his apartment.”
And then the tears broke loose.
Read the rest here: Jelly Jars, Pickles and Tears
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I can’t seem to move on. I have taken a part time job to occupy my mind. At home I don’t want to get out of bed, eat, talk. I just want my boy.
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I’m so very sorry. We all want our child back! It’s really hard. Praying for you dear one. ❤️
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Thank you Melanie! Friday John would have been 51. Tomorrow is Mother’s Day. You are a strong arm to lean on and I thank you! Jim raised an awesome, strong daughter!
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My Jake has been gone from this earth since 2011 and just 2 weeks ago we had to purchase a new refrigerator because our old one was not repairable. I had an opportunity to throw away a giant jar of jalapeño peppers that belonged to Jake and had not moved from the spot he left them almost 12 years ago. I couldn’t bring myself to get rid of them…into the new fridge they went. It’s so hard…
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My Jake has been gone from this earth since 2011 and just 2 weeks ago we had to purchase a new refrigerator because our old one was not repairable. I had an opportunity to throw away a giant jar of jalapeño peppers th
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Yes!!! I too have a couple of bottles of hot sauce. A million little things we’re hanging on to. Our last tangible connections to our sweet children. Oh my goodness. Blessings.
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This happened to me yesterday but with a photo.
I’ve been s-l-o-w-l-y decluttering, not easy for me suffering from chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia, spinal stenosis and the most recent development, meralgia paresthetica.
I was clearing books from bookshelf when one of them dropped and a photo of Christina from 1989-1990, fell out.
Needless to say, I was back to that day in one instant.
The memory was so bittersweet.
May God hold us a little closer this week, I pray.
Isabel, Christina’s mom
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