I picked this book up on a whim sometime last year not knowing how wonderful and insightful and helpful it would be as I hurtle toward the eight year mark of Dom’s leaving for Heaven.
Yet every single day when I turn the page to the next discussion and reflection there is a fresh awakening in my spirit to something I need to explore.
I understand how a heart wants to wall itself off after prayers go unanswered (please don’t regale me with, “But they are all eventually answered”); plans fall apart; others’ sinful actions pound a soul to dust; and lives sacrificially poured out on the table of service are abruptly and unceremoniously cut short.
Why hope if hope is never realized (on this mortal plane)?
Read the rest here: Lenten Reflections: Making Space For Vulnerability
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Melanie, I tried to leave a comment through the blog post but couldn’t get it to go through. Here it is below:
“And He trusted His Father even when the cup was too bitter for Him to raise it to His own lips.
I have had to make the choice again and again to hold tightly to the Hand that could have saved my child but didn’t.”
Melanie, I stopped breathing when I read these two sentences together.
Whenever I stop and confront the reality that God could have prevented my son’s and daughter-in-love’s death by car accident, my thoughts are arrested and my chest tightens so tightly I can’t breath. The depth of anguish is something others who do not walk this road cannot comprehend. I struggle to understand it myself! And yet, my very Savior and the One whom they ran to when given the choice, is the very same whose anguish caused him to sweat blood. And who trusted even unto death on a cross. Anguish and faith are strange bedfellows and yet intertwined in the most inexorable of ways.
We are at 8 years now. I know it does not take away any of your pain and I truly wish you still had Dominic with you…I hope in some small way you are bolstered by knowing I am deeply, deeply grateful for your transparency and candor and personal sacrifice in sharing your journey. You consistently give voice to what are also my thoughts and feelings and in ways that brings clarity and affirmation that I am not alone. May you be filled with the peace of God in greater and greater intimacy with Him.
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