I’d say my relationship with God right now is one of quiet desperation.
I know, know, know that He is in control.
I absolutely believe that Dominic is safe with Him and that He will hold onto me even when I can’t hold onto Him.
I give them a life that is unceasing, and death will not have the last word. Nothing or no one can steal them from My hand.
John 10:28 VOICE
But I am also often like a petulant child who comes to the dinner table knowing full well I won’t be refused yet angry I have to come at all. I want to provide for myself (yet can’t!) since things haven’t gone my way.
I eat because I need the sustenance but it doesn’t always taste good going down. Afterwards I go away full and satisfied yet there’s still some leftover discord.
I’m thankful and question in the same breath.
But there is nowhere else to go and no one else to turn to-the Lord is my Light and my Salvation.
Lord, if we were to go, whom would we follow? You speak the words that give everlasting life. We believe and recognize that You are the Holy One sent by God.
John 6:68-69 VOICE