I wrote this post about things I’m learning almost two years ago.
A couple of the things I’m learning are:
There is no limit to the pain you may have to endure this side of heaven.
Lightning can strike twice in the same place, and fear of what you know by experience trumps fear of the unknown by miles.
I’ve buried one child, I do not want to bury another.
So one of the biggest struggles I face is how to parent my surviving adult children. I do not want their lives circumscribed by my fears.
Are we ALL changed by Dominic’s death? Absolutely! But they are young, at the beginning of life and making choices about direction and life partners and what they want out of the years stretching before them.
I pray every day they will make those choices from a place of freedom and hope instead of a place of confinement and fear.
Can something happen to any one of them? Of course! But it is no more likely today than it was three years ago when I didn’t think it could happen at all.
I will not let my mind and heart borrow trouble from tomorrow. I will choose to focus on today and encourage them to do the same.
While Dominic was here-he LIVED.
I want his brothers and sister to be completely free to live too.