I Didn’t Choose This Life

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I didn’t choose this life.  I didn’t choose to become a bereaved mother–a mama mourning the too-soon loss of one of her precious children.  But God, in His wisdom, has chosen this life for me.  This blog is a peek into my heart.

I am a journal keeping, Scripture reading, favorite verse copying woman.  In the three and a half years before Dominic’s death, I had slowed my Bible reading to a crawl–limiting myself to one chapter a day and writing it out in my journal.  After decades of church attendance, I realized that the stories had become too easy to rush through, the verses too familiar to resonate deeply in my spirit. So I had just finished my journey through God’s Word in this way when my son was killed.

It was obvious to me that God had been preparing my heart for that awful moment for three and a half years!  In His mercy and grace I had no clue.  No premonitions.  No idea that one Saturday morning I would wake to the news that my child had died instantly.

I am trying to be as honest as my heart allows.  I want others to see both the pain of loss and the faithfulness of God in the midst of loss.

I will not minimize the darkness.  Because light shines brightest in darkness.

Author: Melanie

I am a shepherd, wife and mother of four amazing children, three that walk the earth with me and one who lives with Jesus. This is a record of my grief journey and a look into the life I didn't choose. If you are interested in joining a community of bereaved parents leaning on the promises of God in Christ, please like the public Facebook page, "Heartache and Hope: Life After Losing a Child" and join the conversation.

3 thoughts on “I Didn’t Choose This Life”

    1. I am so very sorry Deborah-may the Lord make His Presence very real to you Sunday as you think about your son. And may He bring a special memory to mind-maybe one you hadn’t thought about in a long while, that will make you smile just a bit. Praying that God’s grace, mercy and love flood your heart.

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  1. Melanie,
    When I first met you in Sunday School, You Had an Ora about you that Comforted me to the core.
    I was hurting deep inside from things of the past and things of the present that I couldn’t understand much less let go of and Although you had no idea of the pain I was holding onto, you talked to me in a gentle, loving and nurishing kind of way.
    GOD was speaking to me through you!
    Your Strength and Encouragement was what I looked forward to every Sunday.
    My Heart Broke the Day I found out that A Piece of Your Heart was broken.
    You Continue to be that Strong, Loving, Caring and Nurishing Gently Soul Even through Your Pain.
    My Prayers for you dear sister in Christ, is that GOD continues to Speak Volumes of Love and Compassion through your Heart unto others.
    Thank You My Dear Friend for Sharing a Piece of Your Heart With Us.
    Continued Prayers of Peace
    Wanda I

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