Grieving With Hope

The church at Thessalonica was confused about some fundamental doctrines of the Christian faith.  They were frightened that they had missed Christ’s second coming and they were concerned about loved ones that had preceded them in death.  So Paul wrote this letter to remind them of truth and offer comfort in their emotional distress:

And regarding the question, friends, that has come up about what happens to those already dead and buried, we don’t want you in the dark any longer. First off, you must not carry on over them like people who have nothing to look forward to, as if the grave were the last word. Since Jesus died and broke loose from the grave, God will most certainly bring back to life those who died in Jesus.  I Thessalonians 4:13-14 MSG

This verse is quoted often to believers who have lost a loved one.  At first, gently, sweetly–as an invitation to remember that God is in control, that He has a plan, that the grave is not victorious and that burying the body is not the end.

And, in the early days and weeks after the funeral, it IS comforting–I chanted it to myself like a mantra and it drew my heart from the brink of despair.

But at some point, this verse begins to feel like a rebuke–the well-meaning friend says, “Don’t you know, that Jesus followers don’t grieve like those who have no hope!”

And I turn, dumbfounded, to the person saying this, and wonder, “Have you buried a child?”

Have you grieved the too-soon, unexpected, violent end of your hopes and dreams without a chance to say, “good-bye”?  Do you stand over the patch of dirt that now covers the buried body of your son and wonder how this happened?  How can this be your life?

Do you wake up every morning and have that fraction of a moment where all is right with the world before your mind joins your eyes and reminds you that he is still gone?

  • Yes, I firmly believe that my son is now with Jesus.
  • Yes, I stand convinced that there will be a day when all tears are wiped away and I will be reunited with him.
  • Yes, I feed the hope in my heart with truth from Scripture and remind myself daily that the grave is not the end.

But I am made of dust.

I am human.  I am full of the emotions that God placed in my heart.

He gave me the capacity to embrace and love the tiny life growing inside me before I could see it or feel it.  He made my child leap in my womb when I listened to praise music.  He positioned Dominic as the third-born child in our family and gave him unique gifts and abilities.

And now He knows that as long as I live, I will grieve the son that I lost.  I will sorrow anew when others his age reach milestones–get married, have children–because not only did I lose the Dominic that WAS, I have lost the Dominic THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN.

I do “grieve with hope”–I breathe in the life-affirming and spirit-filling promise that the reality I am living is not the only reality there is.  I lean into the Word of God and trust in, rely on and affirm the victory of Jesus Christ.

But I still GRIEVE.  I cannot force my heart to ignore the pain and sorrow that has been laid upon it.

So I continue to live each day, doing the work that God has left for me to do, but walking a little slower, a little more bowed down.

For those of us carrying this burden of grief, the greatest gift is grace and mercy and kindness–we are doing the best we can.

Encouragement (lending courage to) must include acknowledging our daily struggle and the lifelong commitment we have made to battle on.

Ask us, listen to the answers and then hold our hand or dry our tears.

But don’t expect us not to cry.

 

 

 

Author: Melanie

I am a shepherd, wife and mother of four amazing children, three that walk the earth with me and one who lives with Jesus. This is a record of my grief journey and a look into the life I didn't choose. If you are interested in joining a community of bereaved parents leaning on the promises of God in Christ, please like the public Facebook page, "Heartache and Hope: Life After Losing a Child" and join the conversation.

12 thoughts on “Grieving With Hope”

  1. Thank you for this. I just commented today that I have been sort of grntjynrebuked for saying “This World is not my Home.” Told that I was failing to take responsibility for my life, we should take our life abs make it our own. Everything we want it to be.

    Instead of hurting my feelings, I looked at her with so much grace and thought, “I am so grateful that you don’t understand.”

    Your writing today has bright me a mew perspective. Perhaps, just perhaps, to grieve as one who has hope IS to acknowledge that this world is not my home. Perhaps my longing to go hone is exactly that. Idk. I’m thinking about this fir a while. Thank you.

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  2. Back in Sept. I had written on this, as well. Sometimes, Christians feel as if they must keep that ‘stiff upper-lip’ and suppress all of their sorrow because they fear being a ‘bad witness’, or that others will view them as ‘less victorious’. They forget that Jesus was known a ‘a man of sorrows and well acquainted with grief’. Jesus was neither jumping up for joy in the Garden of Gethsemane nor smiling when he hung on the Cross. (((HUGS))) https://bereavedparentsblog.wordpress.com/2017/09/18/do-christians-grieve-differently/

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  3. Thank you for sharing. It is as if you are in my mind and heart and express so beautifully what I cannot. Matthew’s birthday was January 4th, I have spent a lot of time the last several weeks thinking about the “what would have beens”. My experience is, unless you have been on this awful walk you simply do not understand. I will not “get over” losing my son. And I will continue to speak of him, even though it makes people terribly uncomfortable. I once read that you die three times, first when you take your last breath, second when you are interred, and third, the last time your name is spoken. As long as I have breath I will speak his name and remind everyone what a blessing he was and continues to be…my daughter will be 25 in March, she has now lived longer than he did, and she is expecting a baby in April. This baby will know Matthew, her uncle.

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    1. Cynthia, it is our privilege and burden to carry our child’s light and life in this world since they are no longer physically present to do it themselves. My youngest surpassed his older brother last year. My heart hurts for all of us on this road. May the Lord give you the strength you need for each day. Blessings, dear one.

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  4. I like your comment about grieving your son as we would have been. I’m struggling with that right now as I watch all of the year end high school things taking place-prom, graduation, college signing day for playing sports…all of these things I am missing. My son wouldn’t even graduate until next year and I’m already feeling the sting of not having those things.

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    1. I know that feeling too well. A couple of my son’s contemporaries are celebrating a new child and a wedding this weekend. It is hitting me hard-I’ll never know either of those things for Dominic. So very sorry for both of us-it’s a lifelong adjustment. Praying grace and peace over you today.

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