I’ve lived with invisible chronic disease for a decade.
From the outside looking in, you’d hardly know that I am often in great pain. I make daily choices about what I will do and what I won’t do based on what I can do and what my body refuses to do.
I take medication. I do all the things I’m supposed to do to help my body heal.
But I cannot MAKE the healing happen.
No matter how hard I wish it were different, no matter how carefully I manage my treatment, healing comes (or doesn’t) in its own time.
I’m pretty sure that most people have experienced something similar if they’ve broken a bone or had a bad bout of bronchitis or pneumonia.
Other than following the advice of your doctor and taking your meds on time, resting and eating well, there’s not much you can do to force your body to get well.
A broken heart is just the same.
All I can do is place myself in the path of healing. I can feed my soul with truth and drink living water from God’s Word.
I can lean in and rest in the promise that Jesus will redeem and restore.
I can do the work that grief requires.
And working on healing takes energy, effort and time–lots and lots of TIME.
I cannot hurry the healing.
Please understand that as inconvenient, uncomfortable and disconcerting it may be for YOU, it is immeasureably more so for ME.
Please be patient with my heart.
I’m really trying.