I absolutely understand that when people say things like, “Just think of all the wonderful memories you have” or “He brought you so much joy” they mean well.
Because it’s true-I have beautiful memories of Dominic. And he DID bring me great joy.
But I had those things BEFORE he was beyond my reach.
Childhood memories, photographs, mementoes from school and athletic teams-they were already displayed on the walls and shelves of my home.
But there were things I had then that I don’t have now:
- his physical presence;
- his laughter ringing down the hallway;
- his text messages telling his absent-minded mama that there were storms headed her way;
- his level-headed relationship advice;
- and his tech-savvy, “I can fix it” help when I crashed my computer or other electronic device.
I don’t have a hundred different uniquely Dominic parts of my life anymore.
And I miss every one of them.
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I read a comment on your FB group post from someone who said that we can choose to pull ourselves out of deep grief. Recently, a “friend”, supposedly concerned about my health issues, asked me if I could just grieve a little less for my daughter. That would be a choice, too. I don’t make conscious choices because I feel that is impossible and a useless effort. I do, however, grow stronger each second until the grief takes me under. On the other hand, I do choose to struggle back to the top and swim for all I’m worth as soon as I am able to at least dog paddle. Maybe that’s a choice – not to drown? IDK. I’m almost at the end of my sixth trip around the sun. Maybe the next year I’ll be able to grasp what these people meant? Peace, Levi’s Mom
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Is it alright to repost the pictures that you use,on Facebook. Sometimes they say exactly what I feel. Yesterday you had one that said “how are you”. I had tried to explain that to someone the day or two before but couldn’t get it just right. The picture was perfect, so I put it on Facebook. Then I got to thinking maybe I wasn’t supposed to.
Jesselyn’s mom forever 28.
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You are welcome to use the graphics. Thank you for asking. ❤
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