Ain’t Got Time (Or Energy!) For That

I wouldn’t describe myself as an optimist. 

It’s not really that I always see the glass half-full, it’s just that somewhere, early in life, I learned to be thankful I had a glass.

half-full

So when faced with a challenge or problem or even devastating circumstances, my first thought is, “What resources do I have available to address this?”

I used to be able to take Negative Nellies in stride. 

I could brush off their comments like gnats in the summer. 

Annoying, but ultimately powerless to do me harm. 

And I used to spend a lot of time cheerleading for others-trying hard to help them see that whatever situation THEY were in was not as hopeless as they thought.

I tried to encourage friends, family and even acquaintances to use their own deep resources to tackle a problem.  

But somehow, in this Valley, surrounded by high mountains and with an unlit path winding long before me, negative talk, action and attitudes are on my nerves.

Instead of merely being an annoyance, it feels like these folks have tapped into whatever strength I have left and are draining it through a straw.

If I stick around too long, they will drain me dry.

So I turn and run when I can.  

Call it cowardice.  

I call it self-preservation.

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“Don’t try to win over the haters, you are not a jackass whisperer.” ~ Brene Brown

 

Author: Melanie

I am a shepherd, wife and mother of four amazing children, three that walk the earth with me and one who lives with Jesus. This is a record of my grief journey and a look into the life I didn't choose. If you are interested in joining a community of bereaved parents leaning on the promises of God in Christ, please like the public Facebook page, "Heartache and Hope: Life After Losing a Child" and join the conversation.

5 thoughts on “Ain’t Got Time (Or Energy!) For That”

  1. Love this! I think the hardest thing I’ve had to do on this horrible journey is learn to take care of myself. You’re absolutely correct – it is self-preservation. And what would we do without Brene Brown and her way of putting things?!?!? Thank you for sharing your heart, Melanie.

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  2. Melanie, when I read your posts and get a glimpse of your soul journey – I am encouraged that I am not alone in my ‘changing self’ – and it stirs a hope – a sort of ‘bearing one another’s burdens’ kind of hope – that we will all finish our course and see His face and worship with all of our loved ones who journeyed Home ahead of us 😍
    O Happy Day…🎼 🎶 🎵 thank you for your love ❤️

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