What If There’s Silence From Heaven?

It took me awhile to “feel” God again after Dominic ran ahead to Heaven.

I would journal my thoughts/prayers/questions and answer myself with Scripture.

My heart was still so very shattered that the words often slid right off.

But eventually, as I kept speaking truth to my heart and waiting on God, I heard them again. I won’t lie and say that I often or even regularly get the goosebumps I used to get when I sing worship songs or read a section of Scripture.

I have something else, though, and that is rock-solid confidence in the promises of God to redeem and renew even if I, like the prophet Habakkuk, will have to live this life in a state of loss, want and under the tyranny of circumstances I’d rather avoid.

“The Lord God is my Strength, my personal bravery, and my invincible army; He makes my feet like hinds’ feet and will make me to walk [not to stand still in terror, but to walk] and make [spiritual] progress upon my high places [of trouble, suffering, or responsibility]!”

~Habakkuk 3:19 AMPC

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The times when I am lonely can help me focus on God more intimately. I can speak quite freely and honestly with the Lord. And even if there is silence from the Heavens when I pray, I know that the Lord hears me. He speaks back through His written Word. In these moments, I truly feel the presence of the One that Jesus rightly called The Comforter — The Holy Spirit. Yes, I know that conversations with God are not the same as with a tangible person in the room. But sometimes they are much deeper, going straight to the heart.

~Warren Ludwig, Jewels in the Junkyard

Author: Melanie

I am a shepherd, wife and mother of four amazing children, three that walk the earth with me and one who lives with Jesus. This is a record of my grief journey and a look into the life I didn't choose. If you are interested in joining a community of bereaved parents leaning on the promises of God in Christ, please like the public Facebook page, "Heartache and Hope: Life After Losing a Child" and join the conversation.

5 thoughts on “What If There’s Silence From Heaven?”

  1. Not that i dont believe in God or Heaven, but how can he let innocent children suffer and take them away from thier mothers? It will be a year since November 2 since i lost my 8 year old daughter and i literally cant stand it.

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    1. I am so, so sorry. If you are able to read ( I know I couldn’t for a long time) consider reading C S Lewis’ The Problem of Pain. He does a much better job than I can of addressing your question. I do know this: I have learned to live in the questions. Praying that the Lord will give you grace and overwhelm your heart with His love. ❤️

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  2. It seems like your grief journey has mirrored mine in so many ways, only I am a little further down the road than you (I am approaching my 10 year anniversary). Although my foundations are rock solid, I have entered a time of simmering anger,that I do not like. Rather than deny it, I am totally open and honest towards God about it. I know he understands. I hope this phase passes soon.

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  3. Yes. I understand what you mean about less “goosebump” moments. For me I do experience them, but almost always when singing about or contemplating Heaven. It has a whole new depth of meaning for me now.

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