This time of year when broken hearts are surrounded by happy hearts it can hit hard.
“Why, oh why is MY child not here?”
“Where were You, God?”
Believe me, more than four years later and I fall right back into the same questions I thought I had asked and answered (or become satisfied NOT to answer).
So I have to return to the basics of walking my heart through the steps of leaning into trust.
I wrote this awhile ago-combining in one post all the posts in this series. I pray that if you, like me, need a refresher course in trusting God after loss, it helps your heart.
One of the greatest challenges I faced this side of child loss was finding a space where I could speak honestly and openly about my feelings toward God and about my faith.
So many times I was shut down at the point of transparency by someone shooting off a Bible verse or hymn chorus or just a chipper, “God’s in control!”
They had NO IDEA how believing that (and I do!) God is in control was both comforting and utterly devastating at the very same time.
Read the rest here: Trusting God After Loss: Why It’s Hard, Why It’s Necessary