Today has not been a good day.
It’s not a grief anniversary or a holiday or a birthday or any other identifiable grief trigger.
But I have cried. A lot.
Life refuses to pause, to take a break, to stop plowing forward even though I’m worn out and begging for a moment to catch up, catch my breath, figure out how to keep going.
No matter how well I plead my case it seems there’s no reprieve.
The gap between how I wish things would go and how they actually proceed grows wider each day.
I’m not angry.
Tomorrow is another day and I look forward to new mercies with the sunrise.
10 thoughts on “And The Gap Grows”
Melanie..the only words of comfort that I can offer you today are “I am listening and I hear you”. Sometimes, there is no point with the ‘hang in there’ or the ‘you’ve got this’ or the ‘tomorrow will be better’. Rather, simply, I hear you and the sadness on your heart. Colleen
Bear hugs my sweet friend.
The hardest time of the year. My son died just a few days after Christmas, 2016. The first Christmas we did nothing, my wife and I, we couldn’t. But since then I’ve become nearly manic at this time of the year with decorating (before his death we decorated for the Christmas season in a beautifully but neat and orderly way…never over the top like we do now) and gift shopping. I know it’s a grief-response mechanism to keep me from dwelling too much and falling too deeply into depression.
Praying for you, Melanie. Everything you share has been part of my survival this year, and I am grateful. May God grant you this day His tender mercies.
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I am so very sorry for your pain and your loss. May the Lord continue to meet you each day with His grace, mercy, love and strength. ❤
The Lord is close to the broken-hearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit. May this promise from His word bolster you today.
Thank you so very much! He IS close and does bind the wounds with His love, grace and strength. ❤
Good morning dear heart. I’ve been missing but I am here. I would want you to know you are often in my thoughts and prayers even when I haven’t commented on your posts.
May the light of Christ be with you today and always ❤
Thank you, Carol. I pray the same for you. ❤