Pickles, Jelly Jars and Tears

I first shared this five years ago so it may shock some folks that while I have finally tossed most of the things in my fridge that once belonged to Dominic, I’ve got a giant bottle of hot sauce I’m still using.

Every time I add spicy flavor to chili I think of him.

I’m not looking forward to the day it runs out because it will be one more link dissolved between the living son I knew in the flesh and the memories I have to settle for now.

My parents live in another state so I call each morning just to check in and say hello.

We usually chat about what we have planned for the day, what we did the day before and share any important family updates.

Yesterday my dad mentioned that he had been to the grocery store, came home and when putting away the food he bought decided to clean out his refrigerator.  He joked that he found some things from years ago tucked in the back where they’d been forgotten.

I laughed and said, “Yeah-I did that sometime last summer.”

And then my heart froze as I remembered another fridge I cleaned out three years ago.

I went on to say, “I threw out all the old stuff except what I took out of Dom’s fridge when we cleaned his apartment.”

And then the tears broke loose.

Read the rest here: Jelly Jars, Pickles and Tears

Author: Melanie

I am a shepherd, wife and mother of four amazing children, three that walk the earth with me and one who lives with Jesus. This is a record of my grief journey and a look into the life I didn't choose. If you are interested in joining a community of bereaved parents leaning on the promises of God in Christ, please like the public Facebook page, "Heartache and Hope: Life After Losing a Child" and join the conversation.

3 thoughts on “Pickles, Jelly Jars and Tears”

  1. I still have items in my refrigerator and foods in my cabinet. Its funny the things Jacob liked, Ramen noodles, orange sodas and one can of a margarita mix in the fridge. I keep thinking one day it will sit long enough that when I open that bottom drawer too fast it will explode along with my heart!

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  2. oh how I relate to this. I still have a couple of food items my son bought and gave to us, that I keep to this day almost 5 years now…

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  3. It will be 3 years this October 24,2022 that my beautiful, wonderful, kind boy, Tim, went to heaven. His 27th birthday is this month and he would have graduated with his masters in counseling and certification in family counseling. He wanted to work with HS and college kids struggling with life🥰 I miss him every moment of every day. My daughter still has the last dinner they made together frozen, and I have/use sparingly, the spices he and his fiancé used to cook with. I get the saving the food piece, as he/they loved to cook. He was my sue chef at CHRISTmas and large functions or dinners ♥️ I love you Tate! Love Mamadoo😘😘😎

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