I cannot bring Dominic back-I cannot have my child once again in my arms. I cannot undo the damage death has wrought and the great gash loss has made in my heart.
And so I am left with my pain and my questions.
“Why?” is not a particularly fruitful question (although I ask it still).
“Why not?” is probably more helpful.
If I consider the lives of all the people God chose as examples of His faithfulness and grace there is not one who escapes heartache.
Not even one was allowed to walk this sod untouched by suffering that forced them to lean hard into the only Hope that lasts for eternity.
Adam and Eve reaped the consequences of their sin, were cast from the Garden and buried one son murdered by the other.
Noah watched the world descend into unbelievable wickedness around him and then witnessed the destruction of all flesh on earth.
Abraham left the familiar, trudged for years in a land promised but not given, had a son that he loved but had to send away because he was begotten outside the plan and will of God. He finally received the son of promise but was aked to sacrifice him.
He grew old without the blessing of possessing much of what God had promised him.
Jacob reaped the reward of his deception but lived a complicated and heartbreaking life.
Joseph enjoys a happy ending, but it was a long lonely path that led him there.
David, Moses, Paul, the apostles, Elizabeth, Hannah, Mary, Esther, Ruth-all were called to walk in sorrow as vessels of God’s glory.
Only recently in human history have we been able, in small pockets of abundance, to mistakenly assume this mortal life is as wonderful (or, dare I say it?) MORE wonderful than the promised eternal life provided by God through the ultimate and complete suffering and sacrifice of Jesus.
I want victory without war.
I want harvest without planting and working the fields.
I want to be happy and satisfied here yet still have a heart for heaven.
It is impossible to have both.
Only in light of eternity am I free to live a life set apart for God’s use in the here and now.
Only as a recipient of God’s grace can I be a conduit of that grace to others.
Only in deep sorrow can I find the true value of Christ’s promise that He will never leave me nor forsake me.
Only alone can I fully appreciate the gift of God’s constant companionship.
Only when I am truly hungry can I taste the bread that satisfies my soul.
Simon Peter answered, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You [alone] have the words of eternal life [you are our only hope].
John 6:68 AMP