Shadows and Sunlight

The sun streams just so

and turns my head

I’ve learned not to look too long at that wall

But today

Well today I am face to face with HIS face

I didn’t mean to linger

but I did

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No remedy but to let the grief wash over me

allow the tears to fall and the hurt to run its course

How can I push this down so well most days

How is it possible to NOT feel this all the time

Am I a monster that my heart can pretend it hasn’t been torn in two????

 

Not a monster just a mom

A mom with children left to love

Ones left to hold, to encourage, to champion as they keep on keeping on

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shadow and sunlight

hope and despair

not either/or

both/and

Author: Melanie

I am a shepherd, wife and mother of four amazing children, three that walk the earth with me and one who lives with Jesus. This is a record of my grief journey and a look into the life I didn't choose. If you are interested in joining a community of bereaved parents leaning on the promises of God in Christ, please like the public Facebook page, "Heartache and Hope: Life After Losing a Child" and join the conversation.

3 thoughts on “Shadows and Sunlight”

  1. Just something in Dom’s expression in this picture made me muse a little sadly, ‘Greg (my son) and Dom probably would have liked each other.’ And then it struck me, they still have the opportunity to like each other! We will have all eternity to meet and know so many amazing people. My heart felt lighter. Shadow and Light at the same time.

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    1. What a precious and helpful thought, Elaine! Thank you for sharing it with me. That’s a fact-we are created for eternity from the start and we will have eternity to know and love one another in the Presence of the One Who made us and loves us. May He continue to give you strength for each new day. Blessings, dear one.

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