Prayer Requests and a Pounding Heart

It’s what we do when we get together at church-in Sunday School or Wednesday night Prayer Meeting-we take prayer requests.

It’s what we should do.

We are commanded to pray for one another.

pray for one another

I listen attentively, take notes, try to get the names spelled correctly-I’m the one who types the list for the weekly bulletin so I want to get it right.

Until...someone shares a request that sends my mind down a winding path of memory. My heart begins to beat the rapid tap-tap-tap warning of mounting anxiety.  Death has come to another family’s door or is stalking them around the corner.

Some parent will stand by the casket of the child they bore and wonder how in the world they outlived their offspring.  

And while I try to pray faithfully for all the requests shared, this one lodges in my throat and will not be ignored.

My heart is broken as theirs breaks.  I know only God can hold it together.

I breathe a prayer in:  “God grant them strength, grant them mercy, grant them grace.”

I breathe a prayer out:  “Jesus, Shepherd, carry them in Your arms.  Don’t let their faith fail.”

out of the depths i cry for you

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Author: Melanie

I am a shepherd, wife and mother of four amazing children, three that walk the earth with me and one who lives with Jesus. This is a record of my grief journey and a look into the life I didn't choose. If you are interested in joining a community of bereaved parents leaning on the promises of God in Christ, please like the public Facebook page, "Heartache and Hope: Life After Losing a Child" and join the conversation.

4 thoughts on “Prayer Requests and a Pounding Heart”

  1. Do you ever feel like it’s hard to pray for someone’s healing …. I hate to admit this …. but it has taken me years to accept that Jacob’s days were numbered….. so are the ones we are praying for reaching the allotment of their days? I find that all I can sometimes do is pray for God’s will be done. I dislike sounding so warped.

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    1. You don’t sound warped. Our experience informs every aspect of our lives-including our prayer life. I wrote another post “The Question of [Un] Answered Prayer” that talks about this very thing. I don’t pray for healing, even though my son was killed in an accident. I pray for mercy and grace. That God will be merciful toward the person and that He will give sufficient and sustaining grace for whatever the outcome may be. It’s the best I can do. ❤

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    2. I’m working through this idea of our days being numbered. I hope to post my thoughts soon. In the meantime, I pray that God grants mercy and grace. It’s the best I can do.

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