Missing Milestones

Another friend has a new grandchild.  

It makes my heart so happy to see families grow and prosper.  I love the fresh sweetness of newborn wrinkles and chubby fists.

If I’m honest I have to admit that for every smile that spreads wide across my face in response to posted pictures, there is a tear that slips down from the corner of my eye.

I wish I could feel unadulterated joy like I used to.

But I can’t. 

It is impossible for there to be any progeny bearing his smile, his laughter, his brown eyes and overgrown eyebrows.  The rhythm that filled his head and tapped, tapped, tapped down the bannister is buried underground.

And that is hard to bear.  

Losing a child is not a single event. 

It happens over and over and over.

future has changed

 

 

 

 

Author: Melanie

I am a shepherd, wife and mother of four amazing children, three that walk the earth with me and one who lives with Jesus. This is a record of my grief journey and a look into the life I didn't choose. If you are interested in joining a community of bereaved parents leaning on the promises of God in Christ, please like the public Facebook page, "Heartache and Hope: Life After Losing a Child" and join the conversation.

1 thought on “Missing Milestones”

  1. Melanie I understand when you say you don’t have the joy in your life. Since our son Daniel died I have watched people get married, have new babies, and live a normal life. I want to be happy for them but I cannot. I feel like a hypocrite. The happiness I once felt in my life is gone. I know one day I will feel happy again but not right now. It has been over a year now since Daniel died and it is so difficult going through daily activities. If it wasn’t for the grace of God giving me comfort and strength I don’t know were I would be now. I have to ask everyday for comfort and strength for us. I love to surround myself with other people who have lost a child for they truly understand were I am coming from. No one else can do that if they haven’t lost a child. They try to give their love and support and I am grateful for that but it is not the same as someone who truly knows what I am going through. Lisa Uselton

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