Did She REALLY Mean It That Way?

Most of us are used to them by now-those photo filters that can turn an awful picture into a dreamy masterpiece.

The same filters can take a perfectly lovely photo and distort it into something comical or worse.

Our minds are like that.

When we see things, hear things, experience things-we are filtering them through our own experience, emotional state, physical condition and biases.

As a bereaved parent, I’ve got to be very, very careful I don’t misinterpret other people’s words, actions and intentions.

It’s easy sometimes for me to feel like someone is purposefully seeking to harm me when all they are doing is acting in ignorance.

I can be quick to assume that a person’s absence is avoidance instead of simply a function of an overbusy schedule.

I can take words and twist them to mean something very different than what was intended because my heart hears everything through the filter of loss.

If I don’t constantly remind myself, I forget that if someone else hasn’t experienced child loss they really, truly HAVE NO CLUE what it feels like to walk in my shoes.

Because if I don’t, I spend most of my time hurt, licking my wounds in the corner and avoiding the very people that can help my heart heal.

Do other people have a responsibility to try to understand?

Of course they do!

But I also have a responsibility to try to see their hearts and not only their actions.

I need to check my own filters to make sure I’m not placing blame where there is none.

I should give them the benefit of the doubt whenever possible.

never assume

 

 

 

Author: Melanie

I am a shepherd, wife and mother of four amazing children, three that walk the earth with me and one who lives with Jesus. This is a record of my grief journey and a look into the life I didn't choose. If you are interested in joining a community of bereaved parents leaning on the promises of God in Christ, please like the public Facebook page, "Heartache and Hope: Life After Losing a Child" and join the conversation.

4 thoughts on “Did She REALLY Mean It That Way?”

  1. Gosh Melanie, your words hit me like a ton of bricks! Thank you for calling to light such a hard subject. Just this past week I jumped on the “defensive” wagon and said something I need to rethink….and clarify. When other loss, especially pet loss is compared to child loss…i jump in with both feet! I need to remember, as you brought to mind, others don’t know. That may very well be the only loss they know, which I am thankful for. Never, ever, would I wish this on anyone. Thank you Melanie for speaking God’s love.

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    1. It’s hard not to be defensive when we are protecting our deep wounds! Early on, I don’t think I could even imagine someone “not meaning it the way it came out”. Everything hurt! But now I know that many times I’m just being really sensitive.

      Thank you for sharing your heart here too. May the Lord give you strength for each day and may He overwhelm your heart with HIs love, mercy and grace. ❤

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    2. I know so well. I lost my beloved dog just one month after my son died. It further opened the wounds and I got some mean spirited reply’s (or so I felt) on the parent’s grief page. We just can’t know the pain others are going through.

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