For One Day

Today I decided for one day to ignore the clock and my own internal tick, tick, tick tracking minutes and hours.

Today I did or didn’t do whatever I wanted.

I refused to check my list.

Instead of optimum efficiency, batching chores and trips upstairs or down, I meandered in and out of rooms.  I picked up one thing and passed another.  I didn’t “clean as you go” when I made my salad.  I started something and didn’t finish.  I stared.  I hummed.  I listened to wind chimes tinkle away the hours.

My big fat cat jumped in my lap and I let him stay there even though it means I can’t do anything else because my arms don’t quite reach around him.

moonshine in living room

People tell me all the time, “Don’t worry!  It’ll be there tomorrow!”  But that is precisely what usually worries me-it WILL be there tomorrow.

Today, though, I gulped those words, chewed them and swallowed.  Gone.

And you know what?  

It was fine.  

Fine.  

Just fine.  

I doubt this will be a trend.  Fifty-five years of task-oriented, time-conscious living can’t be swept away by one glorious day of living minute to minute.

But it’s a start. 

enjoy today

Author: Melanie

I am a shepherd, wife and mother of four amazing children, three that walk the earth with me and one who lives with Jesus. This is a record of my grief journey and a look into the life I didn't choose. If you are interested in joining a community of bereaved parents leaning on the promises of God in Christ, please like the public Facebook page, "Heartache and Hope: Life After Losing a Child" and join the conversation.

4 thoughts on “For One Day”

  1. Days like that are great! For a detail oriented perfectionist like me it usually only happens wben I’m sick and can rationalize my lack of ambition. Actually in the last few years I’ve become better at taking a day off occasionally. But it does feel good to get back to marking things off of my To Do list too! 🤗

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  2. Time to just BE and not do…
    It’s difficult when you are a control freak like me but three months into retirement and I realise I’ve even ‘got this.’
    Plump up those cushions and get ready for the nana naps with Ryker on your shoulder 😊

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  3. I love this. I just wish I could do it. I’ve tried and my mind takes over and says you have to many things to get done. I’m afraid if I stop or slow down it will all come crashing down… especially the grief. Thank you so much for your daily words.

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  4. Some tasks give me a little anxiety beforehand. Like, is this going to make my feet hurt or maybe my shoulders or is this outside thing going to make my sinuses hurt. Yesterday, I edged, trimmed and mowed the lawn 3 times. My sinuses are all yucky and my hands hurt today. So I think today, I’ll just clean up the kitchen and call it good. Let it be my catch up with my DVR shows on TV. I need days where I just let-it-be. I find it helpful. Oh, I also need to start a blog for this Friday, Amanda’s birthday. Hugs.

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