I woke this morning to a frantic voice mail left overnight when my phone was on sleep mode which silences all but my few “favorites” from ringing through.
A precious young woman from my family’s past was reaching out because she knew I was a safe person. I wish I had been able to talk to her when she needed me most but I was left with the only option available: call her back and leave a voice mail message.
It’s a poor substitute for being there when someone is hanging on by a thread.
It made me think of the dozens of ways my children and I have learned to “be there” for broken hearts and broken lives.
It’s an easy yes for any one of us when someone calls and says, “Can you talk?”.
Even when it’s inconvenient or worse, we answer the phone and allow that heart to spill its contents until there is some relief and possibly some way forward.
Some days I’m tapped out.
I may not haul feed bags or lift boxes but my heart is wrung dry by mid-morning.
Hours long telephone conversations in which there is no real answer and no way to untangle complex webs of addiction or family history or personal trauma leave me needing a nap.
I try to take a break when I need to and come back fresh when I can.
In this Season of Sorrow I have a little less to give.
But I am committed to helping other broken hearts limp along toward healing for as long as I am able.
So many have helped me.
I want to share the gift. ❤
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