I keep it in my pocket-
an old trinket or a square of fabric or a small photo in a tiny frame.
A little bit of you to hold when I am overwhelmed.
It’s my touchstone, my way of shutting out the world for just a moment –tuning in to love and holding on to hope.
I hold you near so that I can hold on.
No one ever knows how close I come to shouting, “I can’t do this anymore!”
Because I never do.
No one hears the pieces of my shattered heart fall to the floor.
Because only those who share this pain have ears to hear.
No one is aware of my counting breaths-in and out, in and out-just so I can stay in my chair.
Because I never run away.
Melanie, your words are so perfect and you timing in sharing them even more perfect. you have helped me so much You are godsent for sure.
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I totally agree … right where I am today!
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Melanie you are so very strong and brave, especially sharing your innermost feelings. We are all strong just being able to live and breathe through every next minute…..its maybe our greatest achievement next to raising our kids ….especially since no one sees us being so strong when all we want to do is crumble… “the strongest person in the world is a grieving mother who gets up and keeps going every morning ” (Tara Watkins Anderson)…. and you’re certainly not a cracked pot…our hearts are shattered and our cracks will always be there…. and we’re allowed to let them show. We’ve “earned” that right.
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You are sweet Vera! Thank you for the encouragement.
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It’s okay to let your weakness show – the Holy Spirit shines through the cracks of the outward facade and others see and are drawn to Christ. Thank you for your authenticity and for allowing your vulnerability to show! There is beauty in brokenness. You are beautiful, Melanie! Others see Jesus in and through you. Hugs to you!
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Thanks Janet! I’m definitely a cracked pot. I’m so thankful that doesn’t make me useless.
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It probably makes you far more useful than you were before you were cracked!
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