There’s No Place Like Home

Dominic’s Heaven Day fell right in the middle of Holy Week this year-Wednesday, April 12th marked three years since he entered Heaven and left us here.

And every day since then I’ve been homesick.  Homesick for what I used to know and homesick for what I know awaits me when I join him there.

IMG_1795I can’t say that I handled this awful anniversary any better than the previous two but I did handle it differently.  This year I was determined to create space for both mourning and dancing.

I cried a lot from Palm Sunday through his Heaven Day and into Resurrection Sunday morning.  I found new wounds that needed attention and realized some old ones weren’t as patched up as I thought.

It was costly in terms of personal and relational energy but for the first time since Dom ran ahead to heaven, I was able to reclaim a holiday gathering.

And it was beautiful.

photo (40)I missed him, of course, but things flowed and people loved one another and ministry happened and laughs floated through the air.

Everyone left with extra food and smiles on their faces.

This used to be my house every holiday, almost every Sunday.  It hasn’t been that way since Dom left.

But for a few hours it felt like home again.

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Author: Melanie

I am a shepherd, wife and mother of four amazing children, three that walk the earth with me and one who lives with Jesus. This is a record of my grief journey and a look into the life I didn't choose. If you are interested in joining a community of bereaved parents leaning on the promises of God in Christ, please like the public Facebook page, "Heartache and Hope: Life After Losing a Child" and join the conversation.

5 thoughts on “There’s No Place Like Home”

  2. I know the feeling of not feeling at home. I too long for the “home” before my son died as well as the “home” that awaits. I have times when my foremost thought is I want to go home. I pray to accept the life that God has given me.

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    1. I am so very sorry for your pain and your loss. It is a hard thing to accept this new life we have. Praying that the Father will overwhelm your broken heart with His mercy, grace and love and give you strength for each day. ❤

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  3. It was nice that you had moments of colours and light at what can be dark times like angelversaries x it was our 2nd Easter without our beautiful brown eyed boy Jacob with us to enjoy the family times but I captured the day with his camera so I was capturing the world through his eyes – the lens of his camera keeping us connected in the hope he sees what I see.

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