STILL At A Loss For Words

Today is Dominic’s birthday. He would have been thirty-one if he lived.

I find as the years roll by it becomes increasingly difficult to “age” the person I last saw into the person he might have become. Oh, I can guess-but that’s hardly worth doing since we all know life rarely follows a straight path.

And that’s really what defies language and steals my breath. On milestone days especially, I’m not only mourning what I have lost but also what I will never know.

❤

It would surprise my mama most of all that on this day I’m at a loss for words.

I regularly embarrassed her with my non-stop commentary as a child. I told stories about what I heard and saw (and what my young mind THOUGHT it heard or saw) to anyone who would listen.

But I realize now there are moments too sacred, wounds too deep, experiences too precious for words.

Either you are there and share it-or you’re not-and can’t imagine.

This is one of those times.

Dominic would be thirty-one years old today if he had lived.

Read the rest here: At A Loss For Words: Another Birthday Without You

Author: Melanie

I am a shepherd, wife and mother of four amazing children, three that walk the earth with me and one who lives with Jesus. This is a record of my grief journey and a look into the life I didn't choose. If you are interested in joining a community of bereaved parents leaning on the promises of God in Christ, please like the public Facebook page, "Heartache and Hope: Life After Losing a Child" and join the conversation.

14 thoughts on “STILL At A Loss For Words”

  1. My heart hurts with you, no words, just understanding ❤️May you fall asleep tonight under the shelter of his wings🙏

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  2. Thinking of you and your amazing son, Dominic today, Melanie, on this his birthday.
    All of us send you our love and prayers today, and may it help you to know we are all thinking of you and your family Xx

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  3. Holding you in my heart today. The years roll on and the longing to see my son grows more and more. I hope the happy memories will bring you a bit of comfort on Dominic’s birthday.

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  5. Happy Heavenly Birthday Dominic. Sending you hugs and love Melanie. May all of your precious memories of Dominic bring you some peace today.

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  6. So very true. I’m approaching the second anniversary of my son’s death. It’s becoming increasingly difficult to think and talk about him. The pain….it’s just the way it’s going to be.

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  8. What do we do with these days, how can anyone tell us, even those of us who have the same days to do themselves? No matter what these days will always open the wound.

    Sending love across the ocean Melanie…thank you for finding those words. Peace be with you ❤

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    1. I can’t tell you how much your comments and continued encouragement help my heart. We’ve never met and probably never will on earth but perhaps our sons have already joined hands in Heaven.

      I so look forward to the Day when seas and mountains don’t divide us and we can finally embrace. Thank you, friend across the ocean. ❤

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